Find My Freedom

2007-12-29T22:44:00.000-08:00

Since new year is approaching,im getting myself a new link(:
Everyday is a busy day.Goush,im hardly at home,be it day or night. Im a nomad,haha.
I hate being at home,seriusly. Work,boyfriend and friends,thanks for making me feel occupied.
Okey,'nuff sae. Im running late,for my shopping spree.
IM IN DESPRATE NEED OF NEW CLOTHES FOR NEW YEAR(:
Bah,giler,sewel,tak siuman,siao tingtong. Haha.

2007-12-26T06:56:00.000-08:00

I R O N I C .
stardom wisdom seldom boredom

My blog is officially dead -______-" (Yeaa,anybody?)
For d meantime,im too lazy too go skin-huntin` for a new one.Bah!

Working life do take a huge toll on me.
I'm too pre-occupied by work that im oblivious to my surrounding nowaday.
But geesh,thanks god i've given up on d other job,which flatly scream out d word B O R E D O M d moment my shift begin to start.
My leg are killing me,but hopefully my butt wont die on me too,well atleast for d meantime.
Reality check ;working life suck. & i 'fess up ;i MISS mugging&studying.
yes,in short ; S C H O O L. Gawd,how ironic.

Being at home,around mum suffocate me to death. I wonder if she is in need of a counsellor,badly. I,on d other hand,will be VERY glad to foot d bill if there's a need to 'coz im soo sick & tired of being abuse,verbally by her on my off day.
Geesh,isnt it obvious where abg get those kind of attitude from. Need i say more? Tsk*shakehead*

Mr. Muuuuuusang,thanks for being there for me lur. You're d best& always will be,period.-hugs-
Girlfriends? Sleepover at Wani's,gym session,swimming,bitching never fails to remind me on how FAT-bulous my cliques are :P

Christmas day ;Send Marliana off. Im gonna miss her so much,since she wont be heading here anytime soon.After which,went to VivoCity and Bugis with Musaaang,hahaha. Not only d both of us had fun,my wallet too share our joy by contributing some of it happiness to me :P <3

Oh lastly,what a pity&a shame that people nowadays are having blog coz they just want to BRAG/BOAST stuffs abt themself.Propanganda,maybe?Tsk,more to a undying passion of theirs.Hahs.It's okay,if it's not so exaggerating but off d limit,people will mistaken you for being SO self-obsessed.Tsk,kasi chance lur. MAYB,they dont have enough friend for them to boast to?Or they just adore d attention of being in d limelight.Tskkk.

I CANT BARELY WAIT FOR D 31st(: I WANT TO DRINK :D
Yes,party time*pop that party popper babeh!*

& i miss alot of people lur,cb.

2007-12-18T06:24:00.000-08:00

I cant hardly blog nowaday because im busy with work work work!!!
Got to chiow!

2007-12-02T21:56:00.000-08:00

W H O . W A S . T H E . L A S T . P E R S O N . T H A T??

1. You hung out with?: Mizah ;
2. Saw you cry: My Brother ;
3. Went to the movies with you?: Friends ;
4. You went to the mall with?: Friends ;
5. You went to dinner with?: Mizah ;
6. You talked on the phone to?: Wani ;
7. Said "i love you" to you and really meant it?: Hrmm....
8. Made you laugh?: Nizam ;

W O U L D . Y O U . R A T H E R??

1. Pierce your nose or tongue?: Nose
2. Be serious or be funny?: Duh,Funny
3. Drink whole or skim milk?: Whole Milk
4. Die in a fire or drown?: Drown
5. Spend time with your parents or enemies?: Parents

D O . Y O U . P R E F E R..

1. Flowers or candy?: Flowers
2. Gray or black?: Black
3. Color or Black and white photos?: Black & white photos
4. Lust or love?: Love
5. Sunrise or sunset?: Sunset
6. M&Ms or Skittles?: M&Ms
7. Staying up late or waking up early?: Staying up late

A N S W E R . T R U T H F U L L Y !!

1. Do you like anyone?: YESSSS! :D
2. Do they know it?: not sure ehk.

D O . Y O U . P R E F E R..

1. Sun or moon?: Moon
2. Winter or Fall?: Winter
3. Left or right?: Right
4. 10 acquaintances or having two best friends?: Two best friends
5. Sunny or rainy?: Rainy
6. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream?: Chocolate ice cream

A B O U T . Y O U

1. What time is it?: 1.30 PM ;
2. Nickname(s): Wir,Wieee,Ashie,Wiwi,Ah Wi(haha) ;
3. What is your birth date?: 9th August 1990 ;
4. What do you want?: Happiness always ;
5. Where do you want to live? Austraila / London ;
6. How many kids do you want?: None? ;
7. You want to get married? Maybe? ;

U N I Q U E

1. Nervous habit: Walk to and fro ;
2. Are you double jointed?: I think so ;
3. Can you roll your tongue?: Of coz! ;
4. Can you raise one eyebrow?: No ;
5. Can you cross your eyes?: Yes ;
6. Do you make your bed daily?: Yah,duh ;

R A N D O M

1. Which shoe goes on first?: Right
2. Ever thrown a shoe at someone?: Yes,
3. What is your craziest experience ever?: Too personal to reveal it ;

F O O D

1. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?: Twirl ;
2. Have you ever eaten spam?: Wth is dat? ;
3. Favorite ice cream: BEN & JERRY'S BABY! ;
4. How many kinds of cereal are in your cabinet?: None ;
5. What's your favorite beverage?: Root Beer,A&W ;
6. Do you cook?: Haha,are you kidding me? ;

IN . H E . L A S T . M O N T H . H A V E . Y O U ??

1. Bought something: Yes
2. Sang: Yes
3. Been hugged: Yes
4. Felt stupid: Yes
5. Missed someone: Yes
6. Danced crazy: Yes
7. Gotten your hair cut: No
8. Cried: Yes,alot!
9. Lied: No

You guys have been tagged by me:

1. Wani ;
2. Mizah ;
3. Sinah ;
4. Sakinah;
5. Sri .

2007-11-30T07:14:00.000-08:00

GEMINI -The Liar (5/21-6/21)
Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser. EXTREMELY adorable. Loves relationships. Addictive. Loud.

AQUARIUS - The Best (1/20-2/18)
Great talker. Attractive & passionate. Laid back. Knows how to Have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found.

PISCES - The Addict (2/19-3/20)
EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Energetic. Predict future. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationship. Talkative. Caring.

LEO - The Cool One (7/23-8/22)
Nice to everyone they meet.Their Love is one of a kind. Silly and Fun Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you'll ever meet! however not the kind of person you wanna mess with... u might end up crying...

CANCER - The Smart One (6/22-7/22)
Trust worthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being In long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out.

ARIES - The Irresistible One (3/21-4/19)
Nice Love is one of a kind. Great listeners.. Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE.

SAGITTARIUS -The One that Waits (11/22-12/21)
Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always Wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal. Beautiful. Goofy. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only.

TAURUS - The Aggressive One (4/20-5/20)
MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high appeal. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak. Spontaneous. Great at telling Stories. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold onto.

LIBRA - The Partner for Life (9/23-10/22)
Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun to be around. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good Sense of Humor!! Thoughtful. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet.

CAPRICORN - The Superior Sexual Partner (12/22-1/19)
Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Predict future. Irresistible. Loves being in long relationships. Has lots of friends. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Also not a fighter, but if they have to, they will also knock the lights out of you if it comes down to it..Cool. Loves to own Geminis' in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart.

SCORPIO - The Gorgeous One (10/23-11/21)
Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Best kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. One of a kind. Gorgeous Smile. Not one to mess with. Are the most attractive people on earth!

VIRGO- The Promiscuous One (8/23-9/22)
Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find.Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give.

Wicked,it's oh so true okey!

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MIZAHHHHH. aku da update dulu! Na-ni-na-ni-poooo-pooo!Haha,childish nyer aku nie. Bluek. I'LL MISS THESE PEOPLE. including d two friendly security guard(: They are d best ;lighten d work's atmosphere with their sickSICKsickkkk jokes and never ending gossip abt lawrence,d two-faced,horny homosexual bastard manager. Oyeah,we just hate d sight of him,his presence SOOOOOO MUCH!! They are so fcuking fun to be with especially,with ...(inside joke,hehehe) & with mizah around by my side,perfect. But obviously,d workload suck big tyme lur,duh! K bestbest! Today's d last day of work & all of us walked to d Expo Mrt together. They,on d other hand,obviously didnt want us to quit by dropping hints here and there,saying that Lawrence wont be ard much next week onward and they even confessed publicly that they 'll miss us alot but... haiz.Too bad,Maze went home early due to some reasons and thus,he's not in d pic. Phfft!Bump into ERA & ATIQAH at d interchange while heading for bank today. & gawd,i miss her&atiqah,alot!! To cut it short,i miss school,esp my lovely 5A1 classmates. Aww.

supervisor yg terbest skali!

2007-11-22T07:52:00.000-08:00

The Torment

Yey! Finally,im working. Geesh,i hate d working enviroment. What do you expect,it's SURROUNDED by a group of people with konek ONLY ;jantan ! Bluueeeek ! But it's okey,for work experience sake.(psst:bohong2,psl $$ nyer pasal :P) Chey,mcm paham. My skin is getting from bad to worse. Sheeesh,must be due to all those fucking problems & d enviroment at work. Chish! & right now,I'm missing a whole lot of people especially,my dearest wani :( A few more day to,"aloha back to spore,wani " Yeyyy! (:

Wont be updating much. DOTDOTDOT.

Someone 'requested' on MSN tht i uploaded those ETP pics.Phfft,menyusahkn org jek :P

Some pictures of;
Outing with wani,wawa,raihan,nizam& hakim to ETP(:

2007-11-19T14:27:00.000-08:00

"Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me "

We all need that person who can be true to you.& i cant deny at some point of time,i need someone to hold when hopes begins to fade.I've been betrayed of my trust. By this biatch. Thanks arh,alots uh. Well, thanks to ur "good acting",I never saw it coming. I wonder why my world never fails to be surrounded by hypocrites. To make me fall hard on my feet,resulting in another round of their hysterical laughter,plaguing my ears, causing my tears. Finding out d truths d hard way,hurts. Confrontation leads to hatred. My passion on destroying you is still burning strong. Hahs.

Apart from that,life have been quite a breeze.Sleepover,getting myself all tipsy,escape theme paaark,jobhunting,last outing with wani sayang(: & manymany moooore. I've yet to find a decent job. Ohwells,we have our "desparate measurement" jobs. Haha,that'll only happened when everything else fails (:

My bestfriend is off to Austraila just to sate her craving for kangaroo's meat.Cheyyy,maner nak dpt manusia gini mcm Haha,nolur,for holiday purpose. Aww,i wanted to sent you off but too bad,her line is dead & i couldnt reach her. Phhft! (insert muke binget) Haha. May you have a safe journey,bestie! Amin. I looove you so fcuking much okee(: I FARKING MISS YOU,BE BACK SOON DEAREST BESTFRIENDDDD :(

Anyway,Farhanah made my day :D :D I apperciate it ; d post (:Thank you so much lur. For being there & all d things that you've done for me,my dearest good goodfriend. You never fails to encourage me to study hard. You always believed that i can make it,if i gave my all. You was there when i pour out all my woes to you about my ex and you told me to be strong. You're a beautiful person with a heart of gold. Thanks,for everything :D It's fun being yr "guardian angel" :P You can be rough & violent at some point of time,haha, but that's what make you unique. & I'll definitely miss you,alot when it's time for d final farewell.

PROM NITE? hmmph! heart pain lur coz.. im not going. Best lah seh when i see people dress up & all esp. dat particular someone who dressed up as Mafia :P Chey,mcm paham jek.

Will upload PICTURES soon after i get all those pictures from nizam(:

I'm feeling so insecure lately.Pls,make it stop.

2007-11-16T00:07:00.000-08:00

Diss The Past, Kiss The Future.
Coz there's no such thing as forever.

2007-11-11T04:09:00.000-08:00

The Past.

The past memories of us still linger here,in my thought.I cant deny at some point of time,i miss us.The times we had was limited but it was a bliss being with you for 3yearsplus.You was there for me,thruout these years without a word of complain,watch me grow into a more matured girl & you will always be the one to lend me a shoulder to cry on,eventhough im short compared to you,haha.We'll sing our lungs out by singing Avenged Sevenfold songs with you on d background, strumming on d guitar when we get bored & u'll always crash my crib when ur craving for dota call. I still remember d times when i am all alone at home,your mum will organise a plan or two and off we go either for dinner or playing badminton to kill time. I love every second of it.My smile are always true & genuine whenever im with you. When i knock off from work late & there isnt any last bus left,you'll pick me up in your bike & you'll sent me home. I still remember d time when you gave me a card that u paint my face on.Haha,u drew my hair in sucha way i resembled a emokid in it & hence d word,WEMO was created,haha. & receiving that card after a hard day at work do make me smile.We'll munch on the MacDonald's junkie while you cycle me home. You'll go to such an extend just to see me get back home safely.You'll cook a big feast just for me ;french fries&ur infamous kueh teow whenever i'm hungry. Aww,it was sweet.The times when d both of us ran away from home is d most memorable ones. To sum it all,we have countless and countless of memories but it's better that we keep d special ones deep down inside instead of spilling it out here. Since the start of the relationship,we've been facing with nothing but obstacles along d way especially,our parents.I still remember the time we were caught,vividly.But we still hold on to each other for our love & passion towards each other is strong despite the flaws in d r/s & d obstacles. We were madly in love in d past,yes. & that is what keep the content of our 09022004 lovebook interesting.But alas,every beginning must come to an end. & this is d chapter where it ends.Fairytales lies. There's no such thing as a happy ending. For every cause,it bear a consequence. Some of you may say "Stupid. Forget about him, he's an asshole" Easy for you to say because you know little about those many,many years we spent together. Nobody knows really how much we went through and how fcuking deep I used to love him despite how much he hurt me.But neverthless,he'll always have a special place in my heart,for all times.

RANDOM PICTURES!~
2004.

2005 ;-

JAKUN DPT 1st COUPLE RING,NYAHA!Under wani's void deck(:

2006 :-

2007 ;

nizam muke muda seh :p

2007-11-10T07:31:00.000-08:00

The journey ends in death

Mission Incompleted!*Hiakhiak!*

Gahh,it've to be done on Tuesday.Frigging irritating lurh!& dat'll be d final day where i'll be wearing my school uniform!Yey,there'll be no more of plain white...blouse?I want to set the tie on fire,hurray!Haha.

I was bored just now so i cant help but to indulge in reminiscence about d past & there's a pang of regret in my heart that it make me wished i could turn back time,stall it and change it so it can create a better future instead of the present that i'm currently in right now. I am truly not happy with every single things that is being revolve around my life rtye now. Define d word happiness. For me,it's when your happy hormones are being released & sadly,it only lasted for a short period of time. I guess there must be more to life but all those shitty things that kept revolving in my life for d time being,seem to take all d youth in me as they are draining away my energy.The past do take a huge toll. I guess i must hold on,for life is short.

Lastly,i'll definitely miss every single person in my class.For they are the ones,who complete and lighten the class's atmosphere with their wicked sense of humour & kiasu-ness.I guess,this will be the last farewell for our time is up & the job here is done.

2007-11-09T05:37:00.000-08:00

Define Real.

What's your personality love style?

Here is the analysis:

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high .

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for :

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship :

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love :

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.(psst,i want to become an astronaut!haha,tak give up.)

The right job for you :

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success :

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of :

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self :

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

It's ironic & weird that this quiz about myself is oh-so true.Wicked!~

2007-11-08T08:15:00.000-08:00

I'll never let you go.

New blogskin,yeah,finally.I want a red blogskin,sheesh!Cerewet pulak,nyaha!

Do you feel the heat baby?O LEVEL IS OVERRRRR !*SCREAAAAAM!* Hrmm,well literally ehehe.Except for d POA MCQ PAPER left.but what the hell,dat paper can anyhow tikam2 whaaaat!But hah,Goodbye B3,*sobsob*.WHOOOOOTS,im thinkin` of retaking O's.Grr,so many things are better off unsaid.So many mistakes yet so little time.

Well,on the lower note,have you ever love somebody so much that you conceal all his flaws & make yourself believed that he's true,that his love for you is sincere thruout this times?Well,i had.To think of it,it's hard being in a situation,where emotion are running high.& when you put that person before you & sacrifice your all just to make the other party happy.That's me,im a real sucker when it come to looooove! Haha.Somebody save me from meeee please?

& finally,i've forgiven an arch enemy(:

P/S:Thank you,Zafirah :P

Pictures;

2007-10-31T07:20:00.000-07:00

Loads & loads of pictures to be upload but yeah.... later,later sudah ok -_-" A few more paper to goooooo.Yahoo-huu.But E.Maths was definitely a killer and gonekes lur.Haiz.Next is POAand yeah im aiming a B for dat subject!Huhuuu,wish me luck(: I cant wait for this friday!*finger cross* I want 5310 XPRESSMUSIC PLEASE! :(

2007-10-26T08:58:00.000-07:00

The end is knocking

Give me a chance to be that person I wanna be
(I am unbroken; I'm choking on this ecstasy)
Oh Lord I'll try so hard but you gotta let go of me
(Unbreak me, unchain me, I need another chance to live)

Special post dedicated to my BoyBestFriend ;
i'm happy that u've finally found your true love,aww bless d both of you(:
i'm happy that im once your bestfriend,
i'm happy that in this lifetime,i've once met a special person like you.
i'm happy that im known as your BGF among your crews,
i'm happy for knowing you,ever,
i'm happy to know that you used to care so much about me,
i'm happy knowing that u'll always have faith in me,
i'm happy for the intensive laughters,
i'm happy for d endless advices that u gave me,
i'm happy when i hear your girlish voice on d fon :P,
bestfriend,im just want to sum it up but saying,
im happy for every little things that you've done for me :D

Im thankful for every little gesture that u've done for me,
being there for me,
telling me it's okay to love that somebody,
and u never fails to tell me that everything is gonna be okay(:

Still,it wun change the fact that this's gonna be our last farewell,bestfriend.
It's hard,my heart ache for my losses,
but i guess nothing is this world last forever.
Guess this's life huh ; people come,& go when their job is done.
Always appericiate her,love her endlessly & never let her go okay :D
I've faith in you,i believe that u're gonna be her best boyfriend.
You guys look so cute together luh,hahaha mcm paham(:
I'm just contented knowing u're happy(:

Eventhou I lost a bestfriend due to{girlfriend's issue},im glad on the other hand that i still have wani&wawa as my bestfriends,sticking with me till the end(:

Haish,im having a dilemma luh.& it's not about BBF but just....someone special(: I dont want to be the barrier to his only happiness.My heart is heavy,heavy like a rock.But I am so amused that you’re still in my thoughts.It’s so hard holding you,loving you,losing you.It’s sad to be true.& be fooled by you.Should i stay or should i go?

2007-10-24T08:12:00.000-07:00

& YET AGAIN,I WAS DISSAPOINTED.
why must it be me,AGAIN?
Why it cant be................?
Pondering,i asked the question why.
It feel as thou the system inside me failed me.
I wanted to cry my eyes out,
but.
BIG GIRLS DONT CRY.
I've no choice but to keep the dissapointment within myself :( :(
~~gawd,how i wish he do care.well,i doubt he'll ever care,haiz~~

False Pretense
Oh, it's time to let it go

The world's got a funny way of turning 'round on you
When a friend tries to stab you right in the face
Losing faith in everything I thought I hoped I knew
Don't sweat it, {it was} set on false pretense

Betrayed but not gonna be willing to change
And it doesn't seem likely to fade
Betrayed but not gonna be willing to change
Cu-cu-cu-cuz you know...

It's sacrifice
False pretense you'll hurt again
Stop pretending to deny
False pretense you'll hurt again

All along you know you thought you got the best of me
{But} you were wrong and I'm laughing right in your face
I cannot believe you claimed you were my family
Don't sweat it - it's set on false pretense

Betrayed but not gonna be willing to change
And it doesn't seem likely to fade
Betrayed but not gonna be willing to change
Cu-cu-cu-cuz you know...

It's sacrifice
False pretense you'll hurt again
Stop pretending to deny
False pretense you'll hurt again

Oh, it's time to let it go

I can't seem to understand it how you turned out to be so cold
You tried but were caught red handed, are you happy with your role?
It's funny to me how you've turned into such a joke...

It's sacrifice
False pretense you'll hurt again
Stop pretending to deny
False pretense you'll hurt again

So play the game until you run out
And play the game into my hand

2007-10-21T10:32:00.000-07:00

Something Real

MY NEW OBSESSION ;

IQBAL BIN AZIZUL :D :D :D
oooooh,that bigbig eyes.*drooling* and that tut-ter-man(superman) is oh so adorable luh.

And i think being in a relationship is tacky luh.
Guys are sooo unpredictable,as what i just discovered.Hahs.
They somehow turn into a different person when they get rejected luh.
Damn,I NEED SPACE TO BREATHE OKAYYYYYYYY!!!!!!
& the 4 of you are really,suffocating me to death.
And please lah,IM NOT IN A RUSH TO START A NEW RELATIONSHIP.
Not now,never but when the time is right,yeah sure,i will but please,be more understanding okee.
I need more time because I dont want to end up in a rebound relationship.

Okay,enough rambling about guys.BBF wasnt there for me when i need someone to turn to,HMPHHHHT!Takpe,aku ingat luh :P But atleast,there's someone,a friend whom i can confide regarding this woes to,and im thankful for that(:

Yey,tomorrow's the start of O level.The first paper ;AMATHS.Goodluck ehs to the 5A1 Mrs Loke's faithful follower :P Wednesday is the start of Science paper.Fuuuuuh,time waits for no man indeed.I reckon that i wont be updating much,for real this time round.O level O level O level not N level N level N level.Geeesh,taktic2 untok cemerlang.Lols.

2007-10-20T13:33:00.000-07:00

Scream till there's silence

i thought of going private for real this time round.
BUT.!
aiyaaa,some of my tagger doesn't have a blog so yeah,
plan cancel luh(:

My cravings are still not met, YET. There`s still Fish&Co,SeoulGarden,Secret Recipe,Swensen and lastly,my Donut Factory.Grrr,i want it,i need it,the taste of foods is dripping from my teeth!Chet,nak step lagu avenged sevenfold jek.Lols.But seriusly seh,all my raya $ are just there to sate my craving luhs.I need to put a stop to it.I wanna be fat,fat,faaaattt luh!Woits,mcm real jek (: Ok,that's where my bestfriends came into the picture :P "Wie,aku tau sedap tapi sayang tau nak ......" Hehehe :P

Oyeaaaah,i've been mugging,mugging,mugging.FOR SCIENCE.*grasp* Miracle habes dok,i HATE science like right to the fuckcore luhs. But still,i HAD to because,i dont want to spent another year retaking O's again luh.Once is enough for me,like seriously.And i want that accounting course,grrr.I must,i must reach for my wetdream.Hahs (: Ok,i want to be in the same poly as wawa&wani but of course,different course lur (: I cant wait,i cant wait to get out of Damai luhs.I'll definitely miss my classmates ALOT but yeah,it'll be the best day of my life when i received my O's level cert man.Damn,im so looking forward to that day :D

& _______(u noe who u're,i think so),
just want to let you noe that i'll always be here for you.
ALWAYS.and whenever u need me,i'll be there to lend you my listening ears.
hold on okee(:

2007-10-19T23:02:00.000-07:00

Thanks for being there for me,always.
You're a great BBF.
<3 Ryan Ridzuan.
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING ;THE INTENSIVE LAUGHTER YOU GAVE ME;FOR WANTING TO BEAT HIS ASS UP FOR ME (: ,FOR TAKING CARE OF ME WHEN IM DOWN,YOUR CARE AND CONCERN and basically everything(:
u're a godsent,u make me smile despite all the shits =D
you're the best,seriusly.

2007-10-16T07:17:00.000-07:00

Seize the day.

What goes around comes around ;Karma.

That's why i'll never do stupid stuffs for the sake of revenge.For the sake of trying to appease my anger.For the sake of fulfilling my heart desire.No,i dont believe in vengence,anymore and i'll never scoop that low just to get that far.

I used to feel so miserable under my own skin which in turn,caused me to seek shelter under my shell,feeling so shitty and dejected about how unfair life could be.I used to abhor the times when i was feeling down and people never fails to shove shits right into my face,triumph over the bad fall that i had and seize the moment to make things even worser and complicated than it was before.To feel like i've been pushed around and been taken for granted.But now,i realised that patience is all i need(: & ahem,im not emo okee :P

Because I've a strong faith in God.That one day,He'll put make you undergo what i've undergo.Make you feel exactly what i've felt before ;the betrayal,the pains,the sorrow,the shame,the torture,the suffering,the insults,the nightmares and the heartache.And how it feel to be abandon when you needed help the most.

I cant deny that at some point of time,it hurts me deep down when i recalled back the memories that the both of us used to shared,the obstacles that we endures thruout this years but looking at the bright,this seems to be a blessing in disguist.Because only now,i came to realise people's true colour through this difficult times.Those peoples that i used to stereotype was the ones who eventually help me get thru my darkest moments and the one whom i thot will be there for me always,turns their back towards me and leave me in lurch.

How ironic it can be but hey,wake up for it's the right time to do some reality check.

For now,everything else is secondary.This is yet,another unholy confession of mine(:

2007-10-15T09:01:00.000-07:00

I stumble then I crawl

Listen hard,concentrate.Because this song remind me of you.

Yesterday is ubber fun lur.Was extremely happy due to dotdotdot.Ok shhh(: My lips are sealed.Hahaa,ok lame. Was awoken early in the morning by the 1st brother for the part2 jalan raya for the father's side.2nd brother was not going because he've plans and so we had to go by hook or by crook.TERPAKSA lur.Gahh,aper lah naseb.Was dragging my feet all the ways and i even wore the simplest baju kurung althou i knew it's gonna be a looooong day ahead.Grr,headed to Tampines first to Cik Leha house and waited for the other before proceeding.11am and off we headed to the huge rented bus which is probably more than enuff to even occupy generation of generation of my nenek moyang ancestor lur.So the huge lur.& the worst part is,abah&mama lin wasnt even tagging along with us because of adik Haziq.Grrr,punyerlah tak selesa :(

Bad mood,bad mood buuuuut,in the end,it turns out great lur.Yati,Yaya,Chacha,Wan,Hisyam started to hang ard me as to loosen my grip.Oyeah,sat beside my brother eventhou they invited me to sit along with them at the back.Haaahs,anak aziz sehati sejiwa per.& someone was being super irritating lur but in a cute way :P dotdotdotdot(: (: (: (:

Left the whole lots of them at around 3plus after they dropped off from daddy's crib eventhou my cousins asked me to stay with them because 1st brother was going somewhere else lur.& i decided to crash my aunty's crib at Woodland alone since it's still early lur(: Sleepover and i almost pee in my pants because of the stupid ghost prank that they pulled on me.Gahhhh,kekek sia.Okkk,shhh!

Ok,this post suck big time lur.Haha,so the dead lah eh.Omg,i lost my touch in blogging.Chey,perasaan lur.Ok,it's pictures time(: Tapi warning yer,ader gmbr yg aku tgh syok sendiri kays.Hahaa,k bestbest(:

Pictures;

mummy(:1st brother(:dad(:

2007-10-13T18:23:00.000-07:00

Cause true love are once in the lifetime.

Will be a pretty short post today.

Mr S is indeed a pain in the arse lur.Luckily,we are no longer contact with each other lur.He was like rushing me to build a r/s with him but when i rejected him,he called me names and stuffs & even added that i used him to forget an ex.Wtf kan?I clearly state to him that im just interested in making friends with him,not more than that because im still mending a broken heart and it take time but he just dont fucking get it.Olalala,save prepaid aku camni and oh,you're so yesterday mr ass(:

Hari raya gathering was okee lur.Received more money than i've expected to get(: People kept tegur-ing about my pucat face & nenek kept asking me to eat my meds like every hour.Macam saket otak gituk ehs.But too bad,i cant indulge myself in those yummy foods cause the sight of them makes me puke.Wasteddd nyer!Bleargh.

Well,got to go.Im running laaaaate.Will post the pictures some other time,perharps(: Have a nice day,people(:

2007-10-12T09:05:00.000-07:00

News flash!Hahaa,im quite fine now compared to the later afternoon(: Doctor sae that im overly sick because of the bruises which affected my brain pretty bad since i was badly hurt there.Damn,i was suffering from 4pm to 10.30 pm all the way.I kept vomiting and vomiting and i cant even eat anything.It got worser every hour and the colour of my vomit kept turning darker as time passed by.I couldnt even visit Jain in the boy's home due to my condition :( I hope you're doing fine,dearest cousin.I'll miss you and the fun we hadSo yeah,mum had to bring me to the clinic at Bedok since the clinic here is closed for ANOTHER checkup.Erghs.I couldnt breath due to the air-con but geesh,i just hold on and cry,cry cry.Haha,cengeng.Brother had to hold my hand all the time and he never let go and mum was patting my back like i was a little child.Dad never fails to called to asked about my condition.Man,i just love my family(: The doctor gave me pills,yet again and injection.But still,it got worser and i even had to be admitted to Changi Hospital department ;A&E.I was given yet another round of injection and was put to sleep which lasted for 2 hours.I was supposed to be warded but due to the festival season,i was given yet another round of pills,pills,pills.Finally after hours of suffering,im back to normal(: Thank to the Almighty for giving me another chance to live(: Alhamdulillah.But im still limping but geesh,im just glad that im okay (: And to people who cares,thank you.I love all of youuu so much,seriously especially wawa&wani(:

2007-10-12T01:50:00.001-07:00

It's hurt me to see my mum and dad cry on the fon,discussing abt my situation.Why must I be the one who have to trouble them?Im their only daughter yet I felt that I let them down,big time.I feel guilty for troubling his mum.I feel guilty for making my mum&dad pay for my mistakes.I felt like dying and I swear in the name of Allah Im not making this stories up.I can't even do the normal prayer because mum is scared that im going to hurt my legs when i bent down.Mum cried couple of times when she see me in this state but she doesnt dare to show it because she doesnt want me to get all worried.After going for the checkup with wani in the morning,i went home feeling all agitated and irritated and i dont even know why.After one hour of sleep,i woke up and i vomitted blood.Damn,im sooo scared.Im scared out of my wits.Just what am i suffering from?Please God,give me a clue...please :'( Tomorrow is hari raya yet i wasnt in the mood.I just want all this sickness to end,pls :"(

2007-10-11T04:54:00.001-07:00

Disintegrate.

Im soooo sick.Sick as in high fever,flu and cough.Geesh,temperature check and it was 39.5 degree.I broke up in sweat,after being woken up by a bad dream;Death.I dont know why this few days,i kept having the same nightmares and i'm scared out of my wits.Gahh,and to think that my favourite cheese from LJS turn out to be my worst food intake for today.I feel really nausea after eating those junk.Erghs,i really hate it when those stuff act up again.And hopefully by this saturday i can walk as per normal.Classmates tegur me about my injured legs and im really fcuking pissed because i feel like a burden to wawa&wani.They had to walk beside me,guiding me all the way,like my pillar of support.I just love them,so much(: & MR LEE praises make my day lur.Im a gooooood girl artye :P Geeesh,i'll definitely miss 5A1 very much lur.Gahh.

On the other hand,i was "accused" of hacking nizam`s MSN account.Like so the merepek siah.i dont even remember what his fucking new email address is let alone his password.Gawd,he NEVER fails to blame me if things doesnt go his way ;SPOILT BRAT.Like dumbass lur that guy.He make my mum`s and my life miserable.& who`s the one who kept on begging me pls pls on 9 October itself?Geesh,i`ve a verbal evidence against you lah.And ooh,i got to keep my cool lur,i wouldnt want to pollute this post by telling people critically ill stuff about an ex.& I'm so sick and tired of having to go checkup but i have to.The pain is unbearable.Oh God,just take the sickness away and let me lead life as per normal.

2007-10-09T10:13:00.000-07:00

and you JERK it out.

Yeah,i broke up with nizam,my long term boyfriend for real this time round TODAY.Never expect that he is such a hypocrite.Telling his classmates bad stuffs about me,bitching abt how boring his life is with me as his girlfriend whereas he told me the TOTAL opposite about his classmates to me about on how they were merepek,immature and stuffs.He was the one,who caused the enemity between the both parties.Oh goush.He never fails to emphasis me on how deep his love is for me before he went to sleep and it`s ironic that he stab me in the back just like that.Goush,im so over him.It`s funny that i am neither depressed nor sad about this break-up.Maybe,i finally had enough.To think that all this while,i cared for him,pray for his happiness everynight before i went for my beauty sleep,never fails to pamper him and i even make him my everything.Damn it,i hope karma gonna hit him hard.You noe what,jerk? Allah Maha Adil, Allah Maha Besar (: Amin. Thks _____ for telling me,everything.I owe you one(: & Yeah,aku tak maki pun kat dlm post nie.Hahaha(: Kencaaaang seh!

2007-10-08T09:10:00.000-07:00

Teach me how to bleed

Buka with the 2nd brother since nizam is out buka-ing with his classmates at simpang bedok.Bonding2 ngan classmates lahh katerkan ehh :P Hehee.so he bought home cheese fries for me to indulge on since he knew i looove cheese (: Ohlalala,the cheese is enough for me to last for sahur.Hahaa,ok i`m being sarcastic here.After that,he came over to my crib =D =D & yeahhh,have fun with him.Sing along to those raya songs on his new handphone with him and imitating those artists on their videoclips.Somehow,i just cant wait for raya when those songs are being played.Oooook,first time im anticipate to celebrate Hari Raya.Sheesh,too bad that i cant celebrate it much due to Os.Faggot luhs.

2007-10-06T23:06:00.000-07:00

Less is More.

[EDITTED]
i was browsing thru my mails and i found this...

N--------NEVER IN A MILLION YEARS I WOULD LEAVE YOU

U--------UNDER MR SKIN IS MY HEART MY SOUL AND MIND WHICH REMEMBERS UR NAME FOREVER

R---------RUNNING AWAY FROM U IS LIKE RUNNING AWAY FROM AN ANGEL

W----------WE ARE MEANT TO BE TOGETHER

I------------IN MY HEART THERE IS UR NAME

R-----------ROTTING IN HELL WITHOUT YOU BY MY SIDE.

R-----------REGARDLESS OF ALL THE PAIN AND SORROW TO COME OUR WAY

D--------DEATH IS THE ONLY THING THAT SEPARATES MY SOUL WITH YOU

A--------AND MAY I FIND COURAGE TO GO THROUGH THIS ORDEAL ;THE PAIN IS JUZ TOO MUCH FOR ME TOO TAKE IT

H-------HAPPINESS AND JOY IS WAD I PROMISE TO YOU

A------AND DONT FORGET ME WHEN IM GONE

Z-------ZEN IS MY FRIEND BUT U ARE MY LOVER MY SWEET HEART AND MY IMMORTAL

I--------IF THERES A WORD TO DESCRIBE HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU...ITS FOUND DEEP IN MY HEART

Z-------ZEN KNOWS THE PAIN I FEEL NOW.THE SUFFERING DAT I HAVE TO WENT THRU JUST TO HAVE U BACK IN MY LYFE.-------------------It all began on the first day,
We met and we sat side by side,
what would happenn no one could say,
two different souls collide

She was just a girl,
who soul brights up like the sun,
bright enough to light the world
if only she is mine

as we sat together in class
we tease each other,
afection was growing fast ,
and it went further

now she is all tat i have ever love
without her i would not live
thanks to the heavens above
for this special gift

i wish tat i can live with her
from time to time
and our love never wither
from spring and summer to winter

as the day past me by
with her by my side
i have strength and will
to have faith in me

i know tat we wont be here forever
our name will dissapear
but memory will be internity
in my heart i will keep

i hope tat i am the guy
who will be yours forever
i hope the day will arrive
the day i place a ring on your finger

i swear in the name of god i create tis myself....

*****

Oh - thinkin about all our younger years.
There was only you and me,
We were young and wild and free.

It`s was from my dearest nizam & i cannot deny that all of these is mushy,yet sweet.We were young and happy by every little things that either one of us done for each other.The spark,the chemistry,the obstacles and the pains.People will never understand our love for some claims it was only infatuation that we shared but the both of us firmly believed that ours is true love(: We`ve been there for each other since i was a tender age of 14 and never in my 17 years of living on this earth,i love a guy like how i love my nizam.And yes,he`s my everything and nothing can change what u mean to me(:

Ok,that was like so random and whatever.Hahs.But i cant help but to indulge in reminiscene about the past(: Sweet oh memories(:

Finally,i`ve created a new MSN account since i cant retrieve the password for my previous email(:
add me up;it`s salvation-suicide@hotmail.com(:

2007-10-05T10:49:00.000-07:00

Alone,in your zone.

Im so tempted to go to the prom night.The theme is now ;Glitz and Glamourous instead of Bling bling.Gah.And the way anneh(Mr.Raj) deliver the details to us make me wanna go mooooore!Ok,i shuld get a grip on myself but ohwells,thinking of what to wear and how the events will be the talk of the graduating classes seems to wear all the patience in me.Haahs. so much more for my backup plans.Gaah.

On the lower note,my prelims results is so...phweeet,cantek!Hahaa,well,the actual opposite of it i supposed.It`s pretty depressing,to be frank but thanks to that huge fall that causes me to lie flat on my face,i finally woke up to my senses,by picking myself up, and go hard on my studies.This time,for real(: Never ending distraction from nizam but hey,im proud that i can handle that,sometimes without any help from the doctor at the mental hospital :P haahaa,kidding.He`s having the time of his life since Ns is over.Ohwells,literally.Bah,i`m done talking and whooosh,im out of here.Dont think that i`ll be updating much(: Mug,mug,mug.Ohgawd,the typical life im leading as a student.Geesh.

2007-10-01T01:14:00.000-07:00

i dont know whom to trust,anymore.they said i deserve someone better but you know that my heart will always belong to you.Ohh nizam.

2007-09-29T12:44:00.000-07:00

The apple of my eyes.

It`s the 29th September and it is....
my baby`s birthday(:
Finally,u`re turning 18 my dearest.I`ve been there for you since you were 14++ years old and i couldnt be more happier to watch you turn officially 18(:

Yeah,meet him at 1AM and 6AM in the morning and pass him all his present.Hahaa,he jump in joy when he received all the three presents that i`ve bought for him,oblivious of the surrounding.Gah,im glad that u looove the gifts(:It cost me a fortune okeeee!Damn,i`m dead beat.So bdae boy woke up late,and gah,the plan to go to Sentosa for the luge and skyride thingy and underwater world was cancelled.Geesh,so wasted lur because i put in alots of effort in the planning but it`s ortye,it`s okay that things dint turn out the way i planned it to be(: Next time,promise.

Since time are running short and curfew are being imposed by his parents for him after the incident,we have a short & simple celebration.Meet up with him and off we went to dine at Fish&Co. for buke. The tab was obviously on me as a treat to the bdae boy.We had a fishy feeeast and yeah,satu2 perut boncit (: Haahs,finally i sate my craving for seafood platter and fish and chips :D Boyfy is sick so yeah,he wasnt in the mood at all for jalan2 and stuffs.Sooo,went to my crib next and yadadas,he feast his eyes on...DOTA!Hah!dotdotdot

Ok,will post all the pictures some other time(: Im dead beat lur for now.Baaah/

2007-09-28T19:41:00.000-07:00

I need your feelings to enjoy your death

I'm soo worn out. Prelims is over yet there isnt any reason for me to be happy.The word 'enjoy' seem like a taboo because of the upcoming Os.But,one thing for sure, i won't waste my 5 years in school.5 years?Geeesh,it sound so oooooold lur.

Ok,i`m having second thought about going to the prom night.It soooound so tempting lah,errk,except the theme lur;Bling bling.Hurrs.But ohlalala,im gonna stick with my decision and that is ;not going.Oh,what a waste because nizaaaaam is going.And to top it up,the possibility of him performing on that night itself is like...75%?Wtf!*alongstringofbadwords*.Hahaha.That betrayer boyfy of mine.He paid his share without my acknowledge.Grrr.So what if the damage that i`ve made towards you is extreme? The hurt that `ve caused can never be erased but whooo cares? It takes two hands to clap,my dear.And the mistakes resulted from the impulsive attitude of OURS ,so yeah,stop shifting the blame on me for what,a million times?But it`s okay,im going out with my guyfriend anyway on the day itself.Hahaaa,oyeaaaah!You`re always the one to be blame for everything that i did.Muhahaha!Oklah,jkjk.Oh wait,do i sound scarcarstic.Tsktsk.

Gawd,i miss my looong hair and piercing.

2007-09-21T08:40:00.000-07:00

Save your happiness for tomorrow

Ok,it`s the weekend so gyeah,i better start updating my blog before weekday came ushering in ;the next round of prelim.Oh gollygolly,prelim mcm siiiiiak !hahaha,k bole meletup sak kepala aku,dumtakdumtak jek all the way.POA was a killer aside from Maths.Hahs!Geesh,nizam is all relax now since N level prelim is done and over with.Grrr,not fairrr! But still,i have to endure for a month and yeah,after that i`ll be out of damai.Japjap,nie part kenal kasi BIG GRIN :D .Ahaah! 14 points for O level seems so ambitious for a person like me but it`s okay,i will try and try till i succeed.Yeaa eeh,mcm paham jek -_-"

After school,"razif lookalike"(me) and "arep lookalike"(wawa) decided to make a belated birthday card at my crib for "haikel-lookalike"(wani) :P Hahaa,it was tiring but fun.Gahh,it was supposed to be a 'SURPRIISE' but damn,she`s too smart for us thus the plan was backfired.Haaahs,i hope you like it(:

Ok,i`m suuuuuperhyper for now and it`s all because of Nizam sayaaaangkus (: Meet up with him and as always he never fails to irritate me with his never ending comments but hellyeah,he will make it up by making me all smile and happy at the end of the day.Gahh,i cant wait for his birthday.*hinthint* (: I`ll make you the happiest guy in the world on that special day of yours (: But tsk,i miss breaking fast with his mum and dad like we always did last year.Ok,when everything fails....there`s always,Anything drink.Ok part nie,lame.Haaahs.

2007-09-19T09:32:00.001-07:00

Taste like honey.

Short,short post for today.
Gyeah! I am back on track.
Life is great (:
Will be updating this blog again pretty soon,i guess.
-P R E L I M S P E R I O D.-

2007-09-10T06:21:00.000-07:00

Screaming into the emptiness

Been feeling down lately but still,i managed to fake a smile just to please myself and people around me.Gees,i`m not the typical emo chick okey -_-" Like the saying goes,"Everything happened for a reason".And once again,fate have played such a cruel jokes on me.Haiz/

Gah,here i am,singing this song of mourning, my cradle is full of hope, I don´t give up,I`ll break the wall.Time of calm and peace, time to look inside,relic pictures of past.Black and white deceives, uncovers the glance for my grief.I stood here stock-still,wishing the hand of time will unwind.Geez,i`ve sae enough.

2007-09-01T21:12:00.000-07:00

The fun that we shared.

I love my classmates alot,every single one of them (: They rawk big time lur although some of them just looove to make racist remark sometimes,lols.Still,you guys will be a great memory :D

Mr Tan`s advice really motivated me to do well in my study.Geez,he`s sucha nice teacher but Za lagik gerek kans wani?Lols.Ohwells,gonna soak myself in nothing but hard work for this 2 months.Yeah!

Ooh,i just loove my life lur,for now.People around me never fails to paint a smile on my face(: Especially this bf of mine taus :D

2007-08-25T13:51:00.000-07:00

And today is already gone.

I've been tagged by:Farhanah.

1) Each player of this game starts off by giving 5 weird things about themselves.
2) People who get tagged needs to write in their blog of their own weird things as well and state the rules clearly.
3) In the end, you'll select 5 people to be tagged and list their names

So here goes;

Firstly. I USED to believe in the existence of aliens.
Secondly. I have a phobia for microphone.
Thirdly. I hate to talk on the phone for a long period of time.
Fourthly. When I was young,I wished Fandi Ahmad was my husband.
Fifthly. I hate babies,well sometimes.

and the five 'lucky' people are;
1) Wani Sayang.
2) Shaun.
3) Patrina.
4) Mizah.
5) Dilah.

* * *

When I look at the people around me,I realized something: you meet people in your life for a reason. And people are put in your life for a reason. You either learn from them or you teach them. They either drag you down or pull you up. They either edify you or tear you down. And the thing is, it's all your choice. How others treat you is your choice. What you let affect you is your choice. And you just need to stay strong. Keep your chin up. Know what you believe in and fight for it. This does not mean you should put your head in the clouds, but just.. be that perfect amount of confident.

Fight for yourself. Keep the promises you make to yourself, because as far as I know, not really everyone will keep theirs. Temptation is everywhere.Stay strong and believe in yourself. Learn from your past mistakes.Learn how to appreciate what others do for you. And always remember, everything will be okay.It only lasts for a season.

EL oral was about techo(suck)logy.Holyshit,i`m so sure that I`ve screw up big time.Why cant I get the 'spaceship' topic that was being tested on the next day?Geez,fate have played such a cruel joke on me.Grrr,I shouldnt dwell on it,knowing that the hand of time wont unwind.Gaaah!

Well,went to Yishun with boyfy today to my daddy`s crib.I`m shattered after the visit,no doubt about it.One problem lead to another.Haizz.Goush,I`m sorry superman that i vent all my anger on you,making faces at you and irritate you with my action.It wasn`t intentional.Im glad that you understand.I`ll always love you :D I know that teeny-wheeny argument like this make our relationship much more stronger,but I simply hate this feeling inside me; guilty.

2007-08-18T20:37:00.000-07:00

Two become one

A short update before I went M.I.A.Next week schedule will be pretty hectic due to English O level Oral,Science Practical Exam and gees,D&T.Gah,i hate doing folio lur.I like to draw but unfortunately,drawing is not my forte -_-" I am going to 'chong' on my dnt folio and I doubt I will have a goodntye sleep.Oh my,pathetic -_-"

So,I had my share of fun on Saturday despite the need to finish up my D&T foliowork .The Malay girls,excluding Farhanah and Wani gathered together for the first time to celebrate Nasyitah`s 17th birthday with her family.Many thanks to Nasyitah and her parent for the delicious and mouth-watering feast at Sofra (: Didnt know that turkey food was that appetizing lur.Sri crack up alots of jokes and make me laugh real hard.Hahaa,lawak lawak :P Gah,to sum it up, I have a splendid time today :D Meet superman afterward and as always,he never fails to paint a huge,big smile on my face :D
snapshots

2007-08-14T06:31:00.000-07:00

Fly with me tonight.

FOODS!The one damn blardy thing on this earth that I cant live without!Sakura & Donut Factory down,so that left me with Fish&Co.GahhhYuppp,serang!Hahaa.Niwaes,gotten a B3 for O level Mt paper.Was contented with it acerli but the only thing that stop me from being extremely happy is that i have to retake again till i get a As for it.Walau wei -_-" So much for "Damai Tradition".Bahhh,pathetic.

2007-08-09T09:39:00.000-07:00

Every moments feel like gold

Superman was the first to called me up at 1200AM.He made a special birthday dedication,which really move me to tears.He gave me this cute bear and attached to it is a new couple ring since I`ve lost mine a long time ago (: So effing cute seh :D Oh,I love you,superman.

Woke up the next morning and was elated and flabbergasted to be receiving 25 bdae mgses early in the morning.To those people,thank you very much for the wishes (: I was caught by surprise but hell yeah,THANKS :D

I was supposed to be going out with dearest mummy to get my birthday gift since she have alrdy booked me weeks ago but when she knew that nizam wanted to spent the whole day with me,she give way to him and even postponed the outing to the weekend instead.Oh,mummy,u`re simply the best.And..... daddy,hello but fuck you.Rot in hell will you?THANK YOU :D

Oyeah!Meet up with boyfy at around 230PM and off we proceed to Vivocity.Initially our plan is to ride the cable car,feast our eyes on the latest movie in town ;Rush Hour 2 and went for a shopping spree at Vivocity.But we lost our way during the search for the ticket of the cable car so we gave up and decided to catch the movie instead. But however,it was fully booked and the next showtime doesnt slot the time that we wanted so we gave up AGAIN and went shopping instead -_-" Banyak halangan sia.Since the tab is on boyfy,boyfy and I bought the same watches,a couple of clothes,accessories and make up :D Lunch-ed at Breek and the food isAWESOME ! :D

Boyfy bought me a large Chocolate Cream Chip Frappe.It was nice,duh but i will not advocate you to drink it on your first date/first kiss unless you want to blow it away or willing to be critised because your teeth will look well for instance,like this or even worse.......

Gigi mintak kena sental ngan berus jamban!Hahaha :P

Slacked at Bangladesh Paradise after a tiring walk.Went off at around 6plus and proceed to City Hall since we are meeting Zen & Co. to catch the firework together.Zen was late,so superman and I watched it without them at ard Marina Square.The place was crowded with people and whoosh,bau ketiak everywhere siaaa! Haaaahs :P

We wasnt that keen abt firework at first but after seeing it,Boyfy and I was 'wow-ing' all the way.Hahaa,byk punyer tak minat eh,baek uh :P We got lost {AGAIN} while finding Zen& Co. at Padang.Finally,super Zenfaa(Syifaa+Zen) kembar Mustafa,came to our rescue after we failed to find them after a long search -_-" Slacked at Penin and at around 12plus,headed to bedok next and we decided to called it a day since the rest of us are dead beat (:

Unexpectedly,today outing drain all the energy in my body till the very last end but on the happier note,I`ve extreme fun on my birthday and I`m finally 17!One more year and I`m finally E-I-G-H-T-E-E-N !OYEEEEEAH :D

And lastly,
Thank you superman for this wonderful day.I`ll love you till end even if the world tears apart because you`re the best thing that ever happen to me.Cheewah! :D

2007-08-08T09:51:00.000-07:00

True bestfriends are love,dont you agree ? :D

NOTE TO SELF ; NEVER ,DONT,TAKMO,JANGAN( OTHER LANGUAGE) ASSUME FOR THE WORST :D

Psst,here`s the hot news.I am finally 17!So being the typical Nurwirrdah Bte Aziz Bin Abbas Bin Kebas Bin Babas Bin Fatimah nyer Babat,i ASSUMED that this year birthday celebration will be pretty boring but haa,im eating back every single words that i utter.THIS YEAR BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION IS A BLAST :D Being 17 make me wanna go SHAYAYAYA.HAHAHA :P

The Unexpected Surprise

All along,I thot that Bestfriends was dead serious about going to the cross-county event thingy which the school held as a National Day Celebration for this year which is pretty ironic because they hate jogging :P Aku semangat kebabian pakai short sumer sekali...it turned out that they are planning to celebrate my bdae in advance which,i admit caught me off-guard.Bestfriends of mine gave me a ultimate shock by giving me a surprise,by hiding at the side of my staircase while i was heading down to meet them at the bus-stop(: Dalam hati,mcm nak maki2 jek tapi alahai niat tak tersampai :P And then,they handed me my advance birthday gift.It was a long sleeve hoodie :D :D I was touched when bestfriends told me that they acerli considered sky-dining/riding cable car/skyride to be their choice of celebrating my bdae :D Aww,i love my bestfriends,very much lur :D

Headed to Pizza Hut afterward and girlfriends treat me this...

I`ve been telling them how I`ve been craving for this fondue thingy for the past few days to the extend that i draw it at my malay textbook and without realising it,they take note of every single details of it :D Roller-coaster bus ride to VIVOCITY to catch a movie.Once again,it`s on them (: Since the showtime doesnt slot the time that we wanted,we ended up postponed it to other day instead.Bought Vinco Donut and the taste is far cry from Dunkin Donut.THUMB DOWN FOR YOU,VINCO :P

Slacked with girlfriends.It was fun literally,hanging around,gossiping and laughing at people.Went home at 5plus since im meeting boyfy afterward,with a BIG SMILE planted on my face.If only I could emphasis enough on how much my bestfriends means to me,how touched I am that they tried their best to come up with a great bdae plan and for the great time,i would expressed it to them in words but in shorter term,i simply,love them very dearly :D I have a splendid time with the both of you.Meet superman at 6PM and went mugging for the upcoming exams (:

2007-08-01T08:51:00.000-07:00

Another moment is another eternity

Will be updating pretty sooooooon,i suppose (:
E-I-G-H-T more days to. . . .
Oyeah!:D
Psst ;d&t,u suck big time.
muhahahaha :P

2007-07-22T11:08:00.000-07:00

Blindfolds of romance
Syazzy and I make a pact that we are gonna update our blog,i suppose by today since it`ve been abandon for such a long period of time -.-" But psst,be warned ;there`s gonna be load and loadssss of pictures that shall be upload.Gahh /

Hmm,before I begin . . .
i will like...
to..
say that...
YEAH!my birthday is like what,in around 2 week plus?Haaahs.hinting eh korgs especially u,sayang eh.Muhahahaa :P

Sunday.Marks the end of weekend.Boohoo.And tomorrow,it`s back to ;books,timetable,fatimah`s sexist atiitude :P ,teachers and school uniform.Man,this is torturing me,physically and mentally.Hahaa,isk,emotional nah si wirr nie.Geez,school just suck the fun out of everything (: So as for today,girlfriends and I finally sate our never-ending craving for DD ; Dunkin Donut`s (: But too bad,I`ve to share it with my piranna boyfy :P Heehs.

So for the past few weeks,been spending mostly of my time with the dearest boyfriend ;studying,watching movies and games.Ok,what`s new?So we finally get to feast our eyes on the latest movies; Transformer and Harry Potek.Both of them are equally awesome but to me,transformer win hand down as to compare to Harry Potek (: But apart from that,I so cant wait for 'The Simpson Movie' to launch :D 3 more days to go.Hahs (:

School ; D&T is left with about 40% more to go.Damnit!There`ll be night studying and stuffs.Gawd,all this study plan and stuffs,make me sick to my stomach.It`s pretty ironic that dearest boyfy is the one who motivate me to study now.It`s been me,all along to get his engine working and going, for his first major exam,in the past.You`re the best,dearest(: Oh yes,the both of us will make it through,hopefully :D I love you,donut-head :P

So last friday was Racial Harmony Day.The celebration was boring thou but the aura of the class ;beyond words.It was our last year being together and many was busy snapping picture here and there.I feel like a celebrity,seriously.What a memory,hahaha(: Our class bond was pretty close this year as to compare to the previous year.Kasi chance kays,5A1 is the best,hand down :P After school,catch a movies with boyfy and girlfrens ;Transformer at GV Tampines (:

pictures ;

my darling :D
my bestbestfriends :D

5A1 `s malay girls :Dpretty farhanah (:desmond(:the twins,yana and sri(:
Erra,the peniku kepala aku.Hahaha(:The Black Tribe,heehs.Pretty Patrina and Peniku Kepala(::p WeiMing(:
i love this bacin :p

2007-07-02T10:04:00.000-07:00

Confined within our fate

Ok,it`s official,my blog is dead -.-" Oh man,i hardly update my blog nowadays.Aiyoyo,apa nak jadi nieeeeeee?Heehs.

Sooo.Hmm.Ok,where should i start?

1 July 2007.

THE 2% INCREASE OF GST START TODAY !!bersuka meriah eh government kita nie(:

Went shopping yesterday with mummy and wendykus at Bugis.Hohooo,I was surprised thou that Bugis is still jam-packed as per norm.Like wow.Isk,i thot that after the increase of the GST,the rate of people patroling Bugis will decreased.I was imagining this convo in my head......

"Aiyaaa,GST increase today leh!How huh?Aiyoo,Cannot enjoy2 leh like this.No more Bugis-ing from now onwards.Problem,problem.Must save money uh!"

-.-" Take it with a pinch of salt will yarh?So in general,Singaporeans are NOT that kiasu like what I assumed they will be.Heehs (: Goush,mummy and wendyku went all crazyyy over the shoes sales at Bugis Junction -.-" Isk,hantu kasut lur diorg nie,seriusly.Gah,funny how all those clothes doesnt appeal me or attract me from any angle somehow but still,i bought some clothes since i am in desperate need of new clothes.Haaahs (: Should go to town instead and splurge myself on all those beautiful dress.I had fun thou despite having bloodshot eyes all the way due the usage of contact lens.

After that,went for family dinner at geylang.IQBAL IS SO EFFING CUTE :D It was tiring but kecoh-kia lah dey.Mummy crave for durian after dinner and the whole lots of us have to walk a long distance just to sate her craving for durian -.-" OMG,a perfect example of typical kiasu Singaporean (: Heehs,jkjk.

2 July 2007
STUDYING.

It`s the youth day and we spent it on studying(: Haaahs.So boyfy,girlfriends and I finally settle down to study @ Changi Burger King after spending more than half an hour to survey the "sungguh comfortable place" to study at.Managed to finish up my POA despite the distraction from boyfy,heehs :p

Took off at around 6plus with boyfy while girlfeys stay behind.Went to Tampines afterwards and bought a McCafe Caramel Frapp to sate my thirst.Bought some stuffs at TM and off,boyfy and I proceed to my crib (: Boyfy stayed till 2200PM :D Surprisely,2nd brother was rather pleased by nizam`s presence -.-" Hmm,i wonder whyyy(: Nyahahaha.

School tomorrow.Ohwells,what a draaaaaagg!

2007-06-18T08:40:00.000-07:00

Your time,their life

HERE I AM.
FINALLY I`M UPDATING.lols(:

So,June hols was mostly spent on having fun,fun,fun rather than...studying.Hahs(: Hangat2 taik ayam jek nak blajar -.-"

Hmm,i forgot the event that took place last two weeks.Ohwells,ton-ing and stuffs.Gees,i have a STM,remember?So let`s just let the picture do the talking :D

So as for 16 June,went for the 30th Famine Camp.I was placed in the same group as wendy and gees,what a waste that syazzy sarip{lols}was in a different country.I was appointed as a head of family for my group and gawd,i hate it like urghs due to the fact that mostly of my group members consist of students from the local JCs.Few of them are stuck up bitches who think they-know-it all but gees,some are very nice and friendly such as Willy(s),Eta,The anorexic bassist Wei Chiang(lols),Ben,Ken the doctor wannabe and the others,which i admit,i forgot their names.lols(:

First day consists of prep talks and games whereas the second day was activites day which is the newspaper collection.It was tiring but hey,it was for charity (: After dat,we are supposed to do the clean up but ended up,my group slacked.So wendy and i took the advantage and had our beauty sleep.Consert was super happening and fun and when it was time to break fast,i couldnt help but feel rejoice &hyper.Gees,now i know what it feel like to be soo poor,to survive without proper meals and stuffs.Kudos to those poor people who managed to overcome this(:

Went to my aunty`s house soon after for a short while and off to ECP with my two sweethearts and raihan{syazzy`s bf}to spent the night over since we dont feel like going home.

TODAY.Took the first bus home as wendy and i was too lazy to bath and such.Ohwells,what a drag.Reached home at ard 7.30plus and gah,i sleep like a dead log.Darlingkin was superduper sweet :D :D Seriously,he`s like the best damn thing that could ever happen to me :D Spent the day with him and gawd,he make me laugh like fuck.And now,my stomach muscle is cramp due to those laughter.Blueeeek(: I love nizam,yes,i lovee him .Hehehe*blushing*

Ohwells,what a long,draggy post for today.Gees,guess what?It`s Pictures time,well,loads of it (:

pictures
[Darlingkin & Me]

(ton-ing the night @ wani house,ECP outing the next day)

(30th hr Famine Camp& the sleepover @ East Coast)

2007-06-09T15:27:00.000-07:00

Surgically atoned to perfection.

It`s been more than a week since i last blog and gah,I seem to have lose my touch in blogging.Lol,i sound as thou i`m the best blogger in the whole wide world.Geesh,prasaan to the fuckcore lah eyy(:

Geez,i`m free,like finally.No more of staying in the workshop for a pathetic 9 hrs just to finish up the artefact,which have been going on since 1June.A total of 45 hrs have been spent in the d&t workshop but still,i`ve a long way to go to the finishing of my artefact.Geez,pathetic i know(: And and...thanks to a number of people who helped me out with my artefact(:

Yes,i`m back,singing in the shower again like one fanatic girl(: Isk,nampak sah bedek tu.Finally,i get to meet up with my sayang boyfy yesterday after 5 days of not meeting him due to his family chalet.Aww,we ton the night and geez,it was simply fun.Wow,time passed so fast and gah,today is the 9th.Happy Anniversary Dear.I love u,so much :D

So as for today,went to the East Coast Beach with him and a friend.We talked about relationship,religion and boyfy cracked up alots of corny jokes. Isk,mcm tak kenal jek Nizam tu :P The three of us was being surrounded by 4 singh and goush,one of the singh kept looking at my direction,thinking i was talking about them cox i keep talking about beard and diorg terasa lah tuu.Lols,thickskin punyer mamak.It was fun literally,just hanging around,gossiping and acting all crazyAt ard 6 plus,we leave that place and after sending boyfy home,went to wani`s crib to slack since the night is still young.Goush,it was fun lah at wani`s crib.I love her presence,really :D Went home at ard 2330PM and phfft,i`m dead tired as for now pi still,hidop mati online games!Lols.Omg,Great Singapore Sale!HABISLAH,nafsu shopping aku da naek niee.Hehs(:

other pictures/-

2007-05-25T04:27:00.000-07:00

You are the one& in you,I confide.

Yesterday was one helluva day.Fuck shit this tragedy.Fuck this life of mine.I`m on the verge of giving up,on this family.Grr.I`ve put up with so many shit from you mum thruout this years and this is what i deserved?Fuck you bitch.And that faggot dad of mine,dont pretend that u care.The moment you walked out of my life when i was only 3 yrs old,i no longer have a dad goes by the name of Aziz.So,stop acting like u care.Because,I.DONT.NEED.YOU.IN.MY.LIFE.ANYMORE.period.

Meet up boyfy yesterday and i couldnt help but burst out in tears.Boyfy gave me a big,big hug,wipe away my tears and told me that everything will be okee(: It felt great.It got me thinking how lucky i am to be with someone who have been there for me throughout this 3 years plus. Someone i could call my own and be there for me during my darkest hour.Sometimes,i just love to irritate him and push him away but he`s still there,waiting and caring.Thanks boyfy,for everything.I love you more than life,itself :D Lastly, girlfeys and friends proved me wrong.Never thought that they will be so understanding but hey,they just did.Thanks for the care and concern.I love u all lah.Especially Syazzy&Wendy :D

Learning Journey

2007-05-23T06:02:00.000-07:00

A FLOOD OF HATRED SURGES INSIDE.I`VE NEVER FELT THIS MUCH ANGER,SERIOUSLY SIAH!
THERE`S TOO MUCH VENGANCE IN ME THAT IS YET TO BE UNLEASH. I SWORE VENGANCE ON THAT FUCKING FAG WHO LOVES TO MAKE ME FEEL CRESTFALLEN TILL THE DAY THAT MY BODY BECOME A PART OF THIS EARTH`S SOIL.
DEATH HAVE ARRIVED!!!!!!!YOUR STINKING CORPSE IS WHAT I ALWAYS DESIRE,YOU FAG!!!!!
THIS IS FOR YOU SICKENING BITCH.

2007-05-22T05:40:00.000-07:00

So much time I`ve wasted.
I can truly say I never thought it would come to this.
Never would I doubt you,but the truth kept smacking me in the face.
REALITY.You never stop to think and you ripped us apart.

3 more days and it`s THE june holiday!Definitely not a "yey-yey" period for me,period.O level Mother Tongue paper is on the 28th.And now,my brain is impregnate with Bahasa Melayu due to the Intensive Programme.Next is the extended programme for the next 2 days.And after which,i will channel all my energy and focus on my D&T artefact,hopefully.Busy,busy schedule.On the 16-17th,there`ll be a camp at RP.The 30th hour camp which refrain us from eating during that period.Phfft!

My boyfy look super cute in songkok la!(: Alahaii...! Ooooh,he`s love,LOVEEE!!hahahaa!Nie lah kes da mabok cinta.Lols.

{Psst,he`s retarded by birth lahh but still,i love him :D :D}

2007-05-12T11:20:00.000-07:00

If you would just believe in yourself
You know you're better than all of this
you know you've got so much to give
But you're so afraid to give of yourself

It`s like three in the morn and i feel like updating,so here it go. . .

MYE are officially over yesterday and oh,hello to good night sleep for now.Been mugging like fuckcore for the past 2 week and my dark eyebag is the proof of everything.Tsk,last minute study just suck lah.Gah,I`m prepared to see lots of red mark in my progress card on Tuesday.Especially for E.Maths.Oh gawd,that cold piercing look from Mrs.Loke.Oh,spare me :p

Was supposed to go cycling today with wawa to ECP but due to the rain,it was cancelled.Meet up with Nizam instead.Despite being so sick and weak,he willing to meet me up(: Aww,terharu saya.Hehee!It was fun literally,just hanging around and acting all crazy.Thanks for making my day,superman :D :D Get well soon dear.

I really dig this particular death metal band.They are so fucking awesome.Sweet!(: Anyway,changed my blogskin and the blogsong.Hearing and seeing the same thing over and over agen bore me to death.Urghs.Ohwells,Gfs have been complaining about the "loud" music that was being played on my blog and so,this prompt me to change it to this instead.Hopefully,no more complain :P Oooh,i love my bestfrens.Thanks for being there for me,always.Sayang korgs tau :D

Mother`s day is tomorrow and i haven`t bought any prezzie for mummy.Holy shit.But still,i`m glad that i have a pretty and loving mum as her.I love her,so much,that the feeling cannot be expressed in words.Without her,i`m definitely nothing.I LOVE MY MUMMY,VERY MUCH!

2007-05-05T09:00:00.000-07:00

Embraced by agony

And so,it`s the weekends(: Finally,a day or two to distress myself from all those stress that i`m facing with.Gahh/

My nenek is in the house and i`m pretty happy with her presence,as always.She is always full of stories regarding evil spirits that will try to make her life difficult.Not only does it affect her,it affect the family line too.Gahh.And so,it got me pondering.It`ve been years,since i was only 9 years old plus,and things have start to change for the worst.People try to wreck my grandmama`s happiness by using the use of bomoh and sort to place spells on her but alhamdulillah,till now,nothing happened to her except one.She was kicked and suffocated by an unknown spirit in her old house and she nearly died...but thanks to her strong faith in ALLAH S.W.T that she still alive rtye now,still standing strong or else i wouldnt know what will happened to her.Isk.And ohh,my grandmama,aunty and grandpapa will always dreams regarding what bad things will befall on them before they do actually happen.Allah Maha Kaya,as what nenek will always say.True indeed but gahh,complicated family story from my mother`s side.

As for daddy,he`s a murderer lur....NOT!LOL.The truth is,he is a Bugis so therefore people always think that Bugis people are pirates who killed people for survival purpose.Bahh!But my daddy is one kewl creature,reason being,he`s a pretty superb heavy metal drummer during his tyme(: And somehow,Nizam seem to resemble daddy in one way or other due to their interest of music at this particular age.Gawd!To make it short and simple,i just miss my daddy,very much.Goush.

Supposely,today was an outing with Nizam to watch Mr.Spidey in action but gahh,his daddy is not feeling well,so plan cancel.Haish.So end up meeting wawa for a jogging date but instead it turn out to be "gain more fats" date.We bought pizza and slack at my crib.Gahh(: This aunty at this saloon told me that i need to eat more as i was pretty thin for a 17 yrs old girl and wawa have been saying that i`m a aneroxic.-________-" I `m blardy fat for heaven sake and and my chubby cheek are the proof(: Gahh,a few more chapter to revise on physic and proof,i`m done with it.Can i not study anymore?Bahh,well,basically dat`s all(: And yes baby,i`m on a hiatus again(: And oh,did i tell you that one of Jihad`s member invaded my house on last friday? =P

A moment of beauty,
Still it remains only a memory.
A stunning artifact of the past,
the one,the true,the last.

2007-04-30T00:33:00.000-07:00

Torrents fill my veins until i burst.
With mistaken guilt and shame.
Embrace me till the end.
Till the day the dark lord take my life away.

Hmm,i`m too lazy to give a proper update for today.So i shall only post the pictures from yesterday outing with my boyfy(; His presence is enough to paint a smile on my face,let alone his lame jokes =P and ooh,i love him lah,very much.

2007-04-27T22:21:00.000-07:00

My Love For You Is Everlasting.

Yesterday`s night chat was incredible.Can i stop and pause at my favourite moment pls?Why does it feel so right when i noe it from the bottom of my heart that it was an utterly BIG mistake from the beginning?Gahh,u make me smile (:

Paper one was incredibly okay except for the situational writting.I wrote shit due to time constraint.But i felt pretty good that it was long over.Goush,more to come and i can feel the pressure get rtye into my veins.Just hoping i can impress my dearest mummy by getting attractive number for all the exams result.Probably,except Maths.The subject that i love and abhor at the same time.Hopefully,miracle happen(:

Suddenly,i miss my girlfriends,like fuck.Not seeing them for a day and hearing them go,"hahahaha..hihi," make me realised what a wonderful friends i had all this while.Not missing out too,i miss my boyfy too but as always,he`s still sleeping like a dead log,as for now(: Ohwells,in order to get a pretty good result,i should start mugging now....Not!Dnt yet to be completed,the barrier of everything.Goush!

Happy weekend(:

Drowning once again.
will i live another day?
To reach the surface,
Let this burden drift away.

2007-04-24T04:43:00.000-07:00

Probably,a final update before mugging for mid-year exams.Phweh,i think it`s more to busy with accumulating my eyeshit lur (: Hmm,it`s finally tuesday and in three days time,paper one will finally mark the start of the mid-year examination.Goush,indeed time waits for no man.Blearghs.

Boyfy received a trophy for his part in the rugby during the assembly.Oh goush,i cant help but laugh out loud,completely amused by it.Girlfriends shuld noe why (:

Right after school,went to Tampines Mall,straight to Nokia Care to collect my handphone.Really am so fucked up,period.Not only was it not cater to,its condition was worst than before.To make it worst,the queue was beyond horrible.Like phhft,i REALLY need to buy a new handphone,fast.I love my superbig heart girlfrens.Their act and concern,INCREDIBLE and i`m touched,like totally.Lunched at PizzaHut with Triple Hearts girlfriends,Rinna,Justina,Luyi and the only pimp,Ho Jie.LOL (: Went to McCafe afterward and splurge on the Chocolate Frappe.Gahh,Yummeh yummeh(: Gawd,i seriously need to improve on my english,badly.

Shit,i hate this feeling.I fucking abhor it.My patience is running low,i need to break free from you.For real this time round.I`m really exhausted.Sick and tired. Dark will turn to light,in time to come,i`ll be alright,i know.

2007-04-20T07:44:00.000-07:00

SAYA SAYANG NIZAMMUDDIN :D :D

It`s the weekend,finally.Yeahh...ok,hmm BOO!LOL(: Revision time,like whoosh ke george W. bush.Isk isk(:

Dnt folio need to be completed and submit by the following Monday and yesh-saaaah,i only need to complete one section of it and i`m done.Muhahahaa(: *SUPER BIG GRIN*

Science practical exam is a BITCH lur.Goush,no doubt that i`m going to flunk it TERRIBLY especially physic.Hiakkkk!*shake head* So yep after physic went to wawa`s crib and slack(: And yesh,something happened,resulting in wani and me to go to tampines instead.Meet boyfy before heading to Tamp and followed him to a saloon to chop his sliky straight hair.LOL.Cam-whore with wani`s handphone is superfun :D :D But still,i miss my boyfy.Headed to Tampines with wani and it was fun,as always(: Her presence will always reminded me of S`pore flag.LOL :p

We pretended to have interest in buying chocolate from this aunty so we can indulge in free trial of chocolate.It taste yummeh!Hahaaa,beh muka pasrah seh aunty :p Next stop was Nokia Care as to repair my handphone and gawd,it was hilarious-plus-embarrasing moment for me lur :D :D and yeah,on the 24th,i`ll be able to redeem my handphone.Gahh :D Girlfriend are love,period <333 :D :D

Wani; I SUPERHEART HER<33

AhYaz&AhHid ; Girlfriends are LOVE.

2007-04-18T05:25:00.000-07:00

Boyfy refrain me from cursing too much in my blog so i`ll be a good girl today(:

I`m feeling so dejected.My N6288 HP IS BADLY WRECKED!!But LOL,it seem that i`m having the time of my life today,crapping and laughing my ass out like there is no tomorrow(: Perharps i`m buying a new hp soon.Ohwells,hmm should have added a MAYBE instead(:

So had my MALAY oral just now and it lasted for only...less than 7 minutes?Because MR TONGKAT ALI,LOL,psst,acerli i dun noe his name but yeah,he wanted so BADLY to go home early.Mayb he`s late for his anti-aging appointment kot?LOL.Like hello,you`re being paid lur.But the best part is,he said that i`m GOOD(: bahh,skali fail uat malu muke jek.

Meet boyfy after school.Gahh,he bought along his PS2 along.YEAHHH !:D :D He showed me his handphone and gahh,he did something that make me ALL SMILE AND HIGH!LOL(: Ohh girl,u`re such a despo and goush,i really pity you la-for having no shame and dignity.Hand off-he`s strictly mine.Like duh,he`s my BOYFY. Hahaaa :D I bet u`re reading this(: Headed to my crib and played the PS2.Wheee,i won over boyfy MOST of the time :D :D See,see,i HAVE a HIDDEN TALENT.LOL(:

I`m SUPER-HYPER and HIGH for today.WHEE :D :D :D Goodnight pretty people.

2007-04-14T13:30:00.000-07:00

Oh, king of fire - servant of death

So hello(: Finally,i`m updating my pathetic blog.Hahaas.Aisey,MIA lur :D :D

The gig outing is cancel.Bahh,it`s okee,understand and understood.Let just hope that ur bf will recover soon(: Bahh,tu lah kes tak serik nie due :p Gahh,it`s nice seeing all of u trying to make an effort and thanks(: Aru nak create scene tau pat saner.Hohoo(: Hmm boyfy is out of town with his family.Goush,i miss him,terribly.So went out with mummy instead to AMK hub.Bleargh,that place is boring.Nothing amazed me like duh,always.But ohh,mummy is not having PMS today so yep,she`s in pretty good mood so she spent mostly of her *KA-CHING! on me((: Gahh,dat`s the only fun part of the outing-being a free-loader :D :D

It`s 4 in the morning and i still cun get a wink.Who am i to blame?Goush,you noe that i`m s-t-u-b-b-o-r-n for motherfukker jesus fukk sake.Fukk you,dont try to hard.You will end up faking yourself.FUKK YOU,FUKK YOU!Gawd,how i wish boyfy was here(:

Ass for an ass - cunt for a cunt

2007-04-08T10:05:00.001-07:00

Hmm been sucha long time since i last update.Bahh to think of it,i acerli forgot that i own a blog.Geez,i know,i know..short term memory :D

Hmm,yeah..yeah..yeah..-holiday.Busy with mugging for mid-year instead of meeting kakak zana,my kak angkat and her cliques.Bahh,i miss them like my shit miss the tolietbowl.Ohwells,to cut it short i miss them very much.Like fucking much okeyy :D But i miss my girlfriends even moooreee!Ton keper?Hahaaa :D

As for today,meet my beloved boyfy :D :D Went to his crib for a study date.Damn,seriusly i sound like a geek but urgh,i`m definitely not one.But it was superfun lur being with boyfy.Hilang stress tau.Play wrestling,attack his ps2,"jamming" with him and lastly,he cook for me his infamous "kueh teow goreng".Bahhh,one helluva day but yes,we still do study at the end of the day.Wanted to go to bedok cox i`m craving for LJS but duhh,it was late and so,we slack at the void deck instead.Coincidently,he found a packet of plastic,filled with oranges and yadadas,boyfy suggest that we`ve a ORANGE FITE as a tribute to William Orange.hahaaas.SUPERFUN.Ran ard the carpark like a madwoman only to be hard at my leg twice by boyfy`s attack.Geez,and tada,i hit him twice too!!Yesyes,he gt a superpro girlfren lur.Haha(: and ooh,he ENCOURAGE me to eat ALOT -______-" He`s really eccentric lur.And oh boyfy,it`s the 9th so,Happy Anniversary :D :D And so boyfy have a new image.Gaah,it was. . . . !!Come let me show you how he look now after his make over. .
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presenting boyfy new look :D

HAHAHAAA ;D :D

2007-03-31T09:03:00.000-07:00

Love is a flame that can't be tamed

HAPPY HAPPY SATURDAY((:

ohwells,it`s gonna be a brand new Sunday in 1/2 hour but what the heck right.Let me tumpang gembira for a while bolekns?Heeehs(:So basically,start off the day by going to school for the Speech Day.Yeah,how draggy and pathetic.Attendance are made compulsary for all those graduating classes so therefore,i was left with no choice but to drag my heavy ass to school(: Ohwells,i can`t wait to stomp and burn my school tie once the O level exams have completed.Boy ohhh boy :p Went to Bedok for KFC {&.agen!-__-" }with girlfrens.Bahh,i`ll ended up looking like chicken if this goes on(:

Went straight home soon after as i`ve to go to chalet with mummy but why oh why must the plan be backfired at the VERY last minute?It`s so sickening lur but what....ever!So mummy went alone,both brothers working and i`m stuck all alone in this house(: Meet up with my beloved boyfy and yeahness,he ALWAYS brighten up my dayy!! :D :D Slacked at his crib and fun fun fun!Shhh. . .(: Bahh,he is the sweetest thang ever,period.Cause whenever i complained of hungry-ness when there`s no food at home,he will always be the one who will willing to cook for me and deliver it right to the footstep of my house just to make my stomach full :D :D Afterall,our BLOCK is only 1 bus-stop away so take chance lerr.Heehs.Yesyes,u`re the best,boyfy :D i love u;i love u;i love uuuuu.

HIS BODY IS SUPERHOT LUR. :D :D
I LOVE MY BOYFY,NIZAMMUDDIN.

SO DAT`S ALL FOR TODAY.SO BASICALLY,HELLO 1ST APRIL 2007.

The kiss sweetest
And touch so warm.
The smile kindest
In this world so cold & strong .

2007-03-26T23:37:00.000-07:00

"I confess I'm a sinner
I've seen a vision of my life
And I wanna be delivered"

Ha-ha,is good charlotte like, Christian rock now?Damn,mainstream suck big time lur and GC suck too!Yeahhh(: But what is more dissapointing is that A7X is getting more and more lamer.What`s next ?Gawd,the next "i`m a believer" Christian rock band?"Like a city of angels,I'm walking towards the light"?Bullshit!Fuck,give me a break lur.Cant believe that boyfy and i USED to be their No.1 fan 3years ago,obsessing about them especially,M.Shadow..Tskk,*head down*

I`m down with a flu,headache and sorethroat and it suck big time lur.I hate being sick,period.And big thanks to u boyfy for making my mood even worst,early in the morn thus making me go,"hiak-hiakkkk!" on Cole Junior.Isk,Poor bear.Ha-ha.King Cole,my foot!Tsk,sometimes i feel like giving u up taw.Bahh,but still i love u no matter what dear cause u`re the best(:

Pfft,my lip is getting darker.Hmm,mayb i shuld stop smoking.Ha-haa(: I`m bored and i wanna go out(:

Soulbound human heid
Deathmass in necrotic delights
Inhuman ritual tormentors
Rising in full majesty

2007-03-23T21:24:00.000-07:00

Your touch my bliss

It`s been ages since i last update properly.Hmm,as for holiday,it was well wasted on getting drunk,high,ton and stuffs.And tsk,i want moreee!Urghs,school suck out the fun out of everything lur.

Yesterday was one helluva day.I was amused at how boyfy tried so HARD to make me jealous by flirting with some of the girls in his class during P.E lessons just cox we have a issue early in morn,and i left him halfway thru while walking together to school.Those girls are really pathetic,seriously.Hahahahaha,it`s funny that they allowed themself to be made used.Tsk,so damn blardy pathetic.And so,recess time,while i was queueing for food,he apologised(: Tsk,Nizam ohh Nizam.

So when recess was over,proceed back to class.The ferst thang ferst,i saw most of the 5A1 chinese students having some fun with desmond.It was pure entertaiment.But what really got me pissed off is that my place was in a total mess.Seriusly,it`s not about the bag nor the skirt,it`s about RESPECT.Being hot-tempered and impulsive by nature,i throw trantrum in the class and ended up,getting in a fight with desmond himself.It was so dramatic lur -.-"Everybody was trying to cool me down and apologised burt damn,that was the last thing that i want to heard.He asked me to stab him with a knife since i`m so fucking pissed off with him -.-". Shaun told the whole story and it really got me cool down, and obviously i was touched by his action.{And weiliong,i`m sorry that i call u a fucker and asked to fuck off from my place.}And so des and i apologised to each other in the end.But then,it didnt end there,Told Boyfy about the whole thingy and he went to confront Des after school despite telling him that everything is okee -.-" He wanted to bash des up but then,after seeing Des situation,he is okee with just a apology.Hiax,i really pity desmond lur.{I`m sorry aright desmond,i dont hate u,seriusly(: }

Went for band as per norm but hearing that we wont be getting any testy make me think twice abt going to dat damn blardy sucky CCA.So end up going home at 6.30PM -.-"and ard 7.30 went to accompany boyfy for his tuisyen.Bahh,ended up getting home at 11plus.Isk,i`m so damn tired.Bahhh,wont be updating for quite some time.I`m getting bored with computer(:

The hungering thirst,
For the enchantress of the night.
The hungering thirst,
Evil, devour its soul.

2007-03-20T08:55:00.000-07:00

PARDON ME FOR NOT UPDATING MY BLOG BUT I`VE BEEN SUPERDUPER BUSY NOWADYS.WILL UPDATE ONCE I`M FREE.

2007-03-11T14:06:00.000-07:00

The truth will be reveal,when the world came crumblind down.
I`m super tired.It`s like 5plus in the morning and i just got back from a date with boyfy,Phfft,we`re supposed to ton tonight budden i`m having lesson tomorrow at 10plus and my eyes wont stop blinking and blinking,resulted in making me moooooore sleepy.I reeked of chocolate now,thanks to that boyfy of mine and boyfy is goddamn sweet =D Geez,i`m talking ketam now but what the heck,i might as well update while waiting for my song to complete download so i could transfer it to my phone.Lalalaaa :D

Chances are,i`m planning to go to the Red House.With boyfy and mayb,his friends.YEYNESS!!Ohwells,i better mug like fuck before i get all overdose in the holiday mood.I`m going to seize every chance as to make me a better person in the aspect of studies :D I`d better stop now cause i`m pretty tired to continue anddddd...the song have completed download.YIPEE :D And oh,wont be blogging much this few days due to my study plan.So take care yaw !Have a nice,nice one week holidayyy !! :DD

2007-03-10T04:08:00.000-08:00

Bahhhh,i`m super tired :DD Went to two beach today-Changi`s and East Coast beach.Waduh,have to wake up early somemore for the beach cleaning at East Coast as to clock CIP hours.In the end,found out that we`ll be only clock as 2 hrs instead of 3hrs.Bahhh,fucktard but it`s okey cox Ms.V is supernice so i won`t blame her :DD

So after that,planning on going home.But,hmm with a little twist here and there,we planned to go to OCH {&.and again -.-"} instead.Hurmm,maybe it`s a mistake from the start cox u noe shit happened at the end of the day.But i`m pretty glad that this incident happened because i`m really have enough of them.Ohhh,figure out yourself who i`m referring to but Sinah,honesty,i won`t get u involved in this :D I wonder why some perople just loveeee to waste another people time,knowing that they HAVE alrdy made their decision in their head but too bad,they don`t have the fucking courage to sound it out.Despite being asked the same question continously,u still stand there like a person with no life siah.~~Kentalan Cibai~~.Fuck,wasting my time for nothing.Ohwells,i think u deserve more than this shit but i`m being a little bit nicer,out of pity luhs.HAHS Fakers =D

But thanks,i loveee my own company.Atleast i can made up my OWN mind without having to let others wait for my answer in vain :D

That`s enough for today.And oooh,I miss my darlingkin ;) And i`m super touched by his utmost sacrifices for me.:DD

I LOVE THIS PICTURES OF US ;DD

2007-03-08T07:04:00.001-08:00

The DO`s and the Dont`s

"Relationships are a journey, not a destination – sometimes the road gets a little bumpy, but that’s all part of the trip.Everyone’s feelings change over time, and that doesn’t mean you’re falling out of love. Real love, the kinds that lasts, is a quieter sort of feeling and, while it doesn’t provide that instant gratification of that “falling in love” feeling, couples that stay together for the long run appreciate that deeper, for-always kind of love"

Yeah,totally dig that phrase.And so,i`m gonna miss my darlingkin so much cox we wont be spending much time together during the March hols {&.overseas,DUHHH }.What a big boohoo.Hmm,like always,i`ll look at the bright side instead.I`ll make him miss me so much eh!Hehees ;P Oohh,i just love him so so so much luh :DD

And so,today was extremely one helluva tired day.It was due to the fieldtrip to the parliment house.Ohhh,one word to describe it-B.O.R.I.N.G.ohh yes,it`s my 2nd tyme going there and i don`t find anything interesting except for the fact that Qing En snore LOUDLY in the bus.Hohooo,hilarious eh!And oooh,i wanna ride on the Ferris Wheel once it is done which is probably take atleast a year or two,,with my darlingkin,Nizammuddin,THAT if we last that long luh :DD I saw it just now while boarding on a bustrip bus and it`s SUPER HUGEEEE! like damn cool ehhh :D and oooh,I LOVE MY GIRLFRENS SO MUCH.Awwww,spead the love yawww <333

2007-03-07T04:40:00.001-08:00

Ohwells,i`m basically all smile for today :D Despite the fact that today i`ve band practise,which i extremely abhor and to top it up,i find it sucha waste of tyme.Pictures yet to be uploaded but hmm,my cable is with my darlingkin.And being with wani is superb fun especially during band practise.Thanks to her,i`m left with only half of maths homework which is supposely to be completed during the march hols.Ohhh,we`re pretty hardworking for today and i`m extremely proud of it ;D Yippee,i seriously cant wait to get it done and over with.And ooh,Wani`s laughter is so contagious luh.Awww ;DaND OHH,WAWA,U`RE MISS BY ME! ;) That lazybum,tsk!

March hols will be ushering soon and seriusly,i planning to make a good use out of it.Will use the time to complete my D&T folio,which is ALOT but heck la,it`s gonna be my last year so i`ll look at the bright instead of complaining.Hiaaaak,i STILL miss my darklingkin eventhou we meet while ago.Tsk,i seriusly can`t get enuff of him luhs,my prince :D Lalala,enuff of rambling :D

iloveu;iloveu;iloveu :D

2007-03-04T06:27:00.000-08:00

Lost and Motionless
Ohlala,i think this blogskin is fated to be with me.LOL :D i remember using it once and now,i`m using it agen.Pathetic,i noe.Bleargh,too bad for me then.Ths skin that i`ve been eyeing for doesnt seem to work on my template.Everything is okee except the image wasnt there when it was published.Tsk3.Geez,this tempted me to create my own blogskin.Bleargh,i will when i`ve the free tyme.

So as for today,did nothing much except meeting NIZAM and crapped with him.Ohh,i hate today because there was this particular thingy that seriously crash our hope on getting something that we`ve been yearning for all this while.Money sucked out the fun out of everything.Tsk!Ohwells,the only way we could achieve that thing is either one,nizam impersonate as a bapok so he could sell off his ass at changi when the night falls {&.i`ll be his first and his loyal customer :p} or two,the both of us become conmen and con the money from the elderly people{&.hospital is a pretty good choice},telling them we`re the funeral planner.LOL :D Ohwell,take it with a pinch of salt will yarh?Duh,i`m obviously joking and lying thru my teeth ;D

So,i`m planning on working but nahh,let see who will hired a one-week-part-timer worker :D And ohh,shut the damn music player thingy if u hate my choice of song.Haa,it`s my blog for heaven sake!Whateverrrr!~

2007-03-02T08:09:00.000-08:00

Shadows in disguise

Been busy for this past few day.Fuhh!I LOVE MY BOYFY AND MY GIRLFRIENDS SO DAMN BLARDY MUCH CAN.They rock my sock but i,myself rock my own world!CHEYY!~hahaa :D

Been soaking in the rain lately and the bad news is,i`m not even sick.Phfft!I WANNA BE SICK CAN?hehee ;D

Speaking of which,today is the 3rd so,HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO MY GORGEOUS-LICIOUS BESTIE,SYAZWANI AND& HER BELOVED BF,RAIHAN.May the both bless with happiness always and yepp,stay cute luh korg due!They look so adorable together leh!May you both last till eternity kays wani.BUT STILL,nizam and i are still longest ;P

And and,congratulation to AVELINE for attaining 2 A`s and 1 B and a B3 for gp for her A LEVEL RESULT.Oh my lord,u are so damn clever luh girl.i really envy ur intelligency ;D But still,u`ll always be the blur queen! and ohhh,March hols will be meeting cat and aveline for a gathering!Yey! ;DD

I`m done rambling so as for now,let the picture do the talking ;D

I LOVE NIZAMMUDDIN<333

2007-02-27T23:25:00.000-08:00

This world will crumble

We in time, return to dust

 Do you live, or are you lost?
I cannot see the light now
The end of all life
The fall of time.
The age of man will fall.
The end draws near.
A broken line.
A time for all to bow.
The end is here.
Broken wings, a fall of grace.
Dawn of war, blackened skies
Destiny has failed you
Fate left to burn
The heavens fall from the sky
The gods have failed mankind
Despair now floods your eyes

Our tears cant douse the fire

2007-02-27T06:27:00.000-08:00

You may took me for granted,but no matter what dear,i`ll always be there by ur side despite the obstacles.

The irritating-cum-funneh bestie of myne,WAHIDAH<333

The adorable-cum-genius bestie of myne,SYAZWANI <333

I`m all smyle with him by my side.

He`s naturally retarded by birth :P

Trust me,as day goes by,i lose my faith in God,for he doesn`t come to my need when i need Him during my darkest hour.But that doesn`t mean that i do not believe that He exist.Seriusly,i can`t wait for March Hols.I need a big,big break.Away from all this mess.Just be by myself,alone.

2007-02-26T05:32:00.000-08:00

Fuck this feeling,fuck everything luhs.Geez,guess how much i get for my Maths Test? A Perfect Zero.Zero out of Twenty-five marks.Perfect,just perfect.Damn,i feel as thou i`m helpless and useless.

2007-02-25T02:58:00.000-08:00

An incessant noise echoes in my skull,
It twines and vibrates down my spine.
Fanning out to the raw endings of my nerves.

His new hairstyle ;D

I`m all smyle NOW.

Ohwells,i`m so damn lazy to post an entry ;D

Lord of darkness
I speak thy name
Bestowe me a vision
From the deeps beyond the flames
Share me the power
Enchant my darkened soul
Grant me the key
To the mysteries

2007-02-23T09:47:00.000-08:00

A silent departure to a silent place,
what do we know about the anger that starts to grow.
Don't despair, time will heal your torment,
Don't you dare, spend your days in hell.
So beware, faith will bring you treason,
While you stare... Oooooh!

Life will never be as beautiful as a bed of roses.Trust me and mark my words.There`s so many ups and down that we need to undergo in order to know the true meaning of life and it really irk me off when those pathetic motherfucker kanina kepala butoh loveee to exagerate about their so-called "perfect" life in their blogs like almost EVERYDAY.Like hello,u`re not perfect nor everybody else in this world.So just shut the hell up and remove that fake mask of urs.Seriusly,it`s getting on my nerves laaa.Ohwells,just take it as thou i`m mumbling it to myself.Tsk,those 'pathetic' morons.

On certain days,i feel lyke taking the shorter route and that`s suicide.Maybe it`s due to the effect of listening to those songs,mostly about suicidal and blahblahblah.But haish,as u grow older,more problems will re-surface especially when u`re at the lowest form.This life cycle is draining all my energy.So tell me,what`s good does life bring?Seriously,it`s getting boring.Doing the exact same things over and over agen.What keep me going till today is probably the love from all my loved ones.Haizzz.But still,i aint one of those fucktard emo chick or whatever bullshit.Ohwells,i like to sum it up in just two simple words,Life`s suck.

Haiyaaa,mood-swing.Urghs,SHOOO!I seriously need my drugs right now-my NIZAM and CHOCOLATES!

Another round of their hysterical laughter
Plaguing my ears, causing my tears

2007-02-22T03:29:00.000-08:00

Always confusing the thoughts is my head

Please,let me bleed on my own.I wish i couldn`t care less.Sometimes,i realised that keeping things to myself is much more better rather than spilling it out.It`s so hard to express myself nowadays cause no matter what i do,u`ll always blame me,finding faults with me.I always wonder why i`m always wrong in your eyes?Seriously siaa,sometimes,i asked myself what the point of living and breathing?Go ahead and scream your lung out at me.Haizzz.Sickening world.Wadeva laaa.

2007-02-20T04:29:00.000-08:00

We pray for better days.

New blogskin baby and surprisely,it was done by our own damaian.Whoosh,damn talented luhh sia ;D
My Mr.Nizammuddin is so fucking adorable can?His silky straight hair wanna make me go agagagaga siah everytime i see him!And ooooh,school starting tomorrow.Damn,i so farking hate school luh.Urghs.For once,i`ve completed ALL my homework!Yeyness for me ;DD Ohwells,nothing much to blog about.Just did it for the sake of wasting time ;))

I can see it too, for you,I`ma scared,If I lose you,I`ma not prepared.

2007-02-19T11:04:00.001-08:00

So here i`ma agen,back to square one,blogging.How pathetic can i get.Sheesh.I should have stop all this addiction.Ohwells,since i`ve the urge to continue back blogging,so here i`m with a cheesy big smyle ;DD But pardon me for using the old skin,i`m just too lazy to find a new one ;p

So yep,holiday was a bore.No shops,simply nothing.Friends,out studying{&.i hate studying},Family,working and Boyfy is busy with family gathering and blahblahblah dis past few day and i`m so elated to meet hym today.Ohhh,i hate the cold war between the both of us.It`s been going on for a day or two but thank god,we`re okee now ;DD Went to his crib at ard 3 and rot there and then,ard 6,went to my crib and watch a movie or two.And then,at 9 plus went back to his crib,conquer his bed and we decided to have a long,long talk about our problems.It felt good to cuddle him when i`m in all tears and such.The talk have wake me up to my senses and make me realised what a egoist and selfish girlfren i`ve been all this while.Geez,dint noe love can turn us into someone whom we are not supposed to be.Ohwells,all i wanted to say here dat i regret it all,my mistakes and my actions,boyfy.Haish,i just love you so much,more than you ever imagine ;DD I noe you are reading this,sweetheart and i`ma sorry for the pain that i`ve caused.It wasnt intentional hun and u noe it,rtye?You`re the greatest,bestest and my ideal boyfy and nothing can change that fact.Absolutely nothing ;p

My first ever true love,period.

Ohh,obviously it was dedicate to boyfy so you`re forgiven if you cursed or swear me for being so mushy.Khekee ;D Ohwells,for once,i wrote something long about my boyfy and i`m contented with it ;D

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else.I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself.I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart.I'd rather be with the one who holds my heart,rather than the one who satisfy my lust.

Triple-Hearts<333

P/S ;i love them loads ;DD